I’m trying really hard and I hope my family and those few people who are concerned about me understand that. More than anything I want this horrible thing to be ridden of. I’m exhausted, mentally, emotionally and physically. It’s so shit and it’s something I wouldn’t even wish upon my worst enemy. As the determined and passionate person I am, I truly hope I can find the energy to overcome all this. All I hope is everyone appreciates that because this isn’t going to be easy, particularly for me. I’m so scared but this is going to be over.