I’m trying really hard and I hope my family and those few people who are concerned about me understand that. More than anything I want this horrible thing to be ridden of. I’m exhausted, mentally, emotionally and physically. It’s so shit and it’s something I wouldn’t even wish upon my worst enemy. As the determined and passionate person I am, I truly hope I can find the energy to overcome all this. All I hope is everyone appreciates that because this isn’t going to be easy, particularly for me. I’m so scared but this is going to be over. 

Absolutely petrified about today. I don’t exactly want to say why but it’s just something huge and life-changing for me and I am just so nervous about it. 

Ok, so I had a really lovely time in Portugal, I did. But… it just wasn’t quite perfect. I felt so lonely when I was out there. I’m not going to divulge and let everything out because I’m aware some of the girls who went with me actually know about my tumblr (gah) and I don’t want to make things awkward. I guess all I can say is I enjoyed my own company, being in the sunshine, getting a flipping fabulous tan, and just being on holiday in general. It was just a rather strange 10 days for me and many things happened out there that have really changed things for me.

I’ll post some pictures in a bit though! OH and Portugal is beeeeeautiful, particularly the old town in Albufeira is just gorgeous. But anyway, I’m home now, back to being a lazy bum on the internet! Jeez, I swear I’ve missed out on so much whilst I was away!  

Hello everyone, I got back from Portugal earlier, absolutely exhausted but loving my new tan! I’ll be back to posting as normal tomorrow perhaps, once I’ve had a humungous sleep! xxxx