Just thought I’d say a quick hello to any of you who still remember me!
I hope you’re all well. Excited for Christmas? I am for suuure woo.

Ummm things that have changed since the last time you may have heard from me…. hmmm…. well I’m now employed! I work for a very fabulous supermarket in the UK where they pay me very well. Despite it being really exhausting and a lot of hard work, I really enjoy it and have met some really great people who I hope to be friends with for a long time.
I absolutely love the city I live in, it’s so fabulous. I’m totally awful and don’t ever go to my university lecture’s haha, I’m always wondering around town, spending money that I miraculously have but shouldn’t spend (it’s difficult when Topshop is a 22 minute walk away from where I live…. seriously, my entire wardrobe is from Topshop now!). Or I’m always at the gym…. with my personal trainer….. heheheheheh. And that’s where I shut up!
Ummm… I have like zilch friends, wah. I mean, I’ve made about four friends. But it’s still in that faze where it’s kinda awkward if you know what I mean? One of them agreed to live with me next year though, yay :) Haven’t heard from any of my home friends since I saw them about 2 months ago though, wah :( that’s a bit poopy, hate that I’ll only hear from them if I make the effort… ho hum!

Things aren’t always so super for me, to be honest they can be pretty fucking awful sometimes! But things are slowly but surely getting a little bit better.

Umm….. don’t know what quite else to say. I really need to get my bum off the internet. have a shower and learn tonnes of lines for a scene I have to perform tomorrow, lol. So on that note!

Hope you’re all well.  Keep smiling and being fabulous people.

Lots of Love Lucy xxxxxxxx 

Hey hey, remember me?
I thought I’d do a little update and say hello to you all. First of all, lots has changed since I *left* tumblr and also a lot hasn’t. In terms of my whole getting better because I’m not very well and wasn’t when I left; well things are moving at an incredibly slow pace. It’s very difficult, I’ve had some really low points and have found a lot of things difficult to overcome and come to terms with. I’m still waiting for my proper treatment and help but I’ve had many meetings with therapists and doctors and had all sorts of health tests…. FUN!

Not long after I stopped posting on here I received my A Level results and did very well and managed to get into University! YAY. I was so shocked at myself with the results I gained as things were AWFUL when I was doing my exams and I don’t know how my little brain quite did it! I actually moved into University this morning. Of course I was a total loser and cried my eyes out when my mum left me haha. It’s very strange living in a new city and not knowing anyone but the people I’m living with who I’ve met so far are really nice :)

I also broke up with my boyfriend about a month ago. It was really crap but it was something that took me a lot of courage to do as I had been thinking about it for… well….months, to be honest. I think having had my heart broken in the past was what held me back as I know how awful it can be and it can really damage you and I just didn’t want to do that to someone else. However things do end and that’s just life… You just have to move on but I’m doing alright and I hope he is too.

I don’t really know what else to say. I’m not sure if I will return to tumblr full time as to be honest, I don’t really miss it. I actually set up a separate account and reblogged things from my ‘favourites’ as I usually did before but I just got quite bored. Maybe I’ll be a casual user or return in my university boredom haha.

Hope you’re all well, thank you to all of you who sent me messages. I received TONNES and was very touched by them all. If any of you want to keep in contact just message me or tweet me (@lucybirchall), etc etc. Oh and I can’t believe I still have so many followers, I’ve been gone for about two months and *only* lost about 70-80 followers! 

Anyway, maybe I’ll be back soon?
xxxxxxx 

A letter to my dear followers/anyone who can be bothered to read this….

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I just want to give up. I’ve had enough already, I just wasn’t prepared for the change. Literally everything is so shit and I feel trapped and it’s going to be like this forever. I’m lost, truly. 

How on earth is my little baby brother all of a sudden 13?! Seriously, where did that time go? He’s just grown up, magically, overnight into this teenage boy! He’s even taller than me and I’m 5ft6… CRAY! Happy Birthday Paul :) xxxxx

it’s harder than I thought it would be

it’s all become shitty now and I just feel stuck.

Apparently I’m already making ‘excellent progress’ and should be very proud of myself (ha, me, proud?). This is really difficult but I swear I’m trying. My mum treated me to a ‘luxury hot chocolate’ in Marks and Spencer’s earlier. It was the creamiest hot chocolate ever, with more cream on top, marshmallows and chocolate sprinkles. My stomach has totally ballooned up but I’m just trying to ignore it. Of course, this isn’t what my new diet consists of but it’s nice to be allowed treats every once and a while. However there were a few other things I was told at my appointment and all I could think was how the hell did I get myself into this situation? I wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy. Obviously, some people, like myself unfortunately become victim to it but if you’re sat there thinking ‘ugh I’m so fat, I need to diet’, chances are you’re not fat at all and fuck, you do not need to diet! Please please please don’t ever get yourself into this situation. It’s so horrible and getting over it is just as difficult as enduring it. Just…. argh. But I’m really trying.