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Feel like I’ve hit a brick wall at the moment. Revision is going NO WHERE, seriously, everything I try and learn just isn’t staying in my brain which is panicking me even more and stressing me out far too much about my exams. My philosophy exam is on thursday and I have so much to know but I just can’t. I had the worst sleep ever last night, in fact, I don’t think I even had a sleep. I looked at my phone and it said 4am and I just broke down. I just feel stuck and it sucks so much. So many aspects of my life I feel lost about. I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m doing. I feel like I’m losing control over certain things and it freaks me out so much. Everything just sucks. I haven’t heard from any of my, what, two friends in flipping ages which sucks. I know I should just give them a text and organise something but I don’t know, something just stops me and I wish I could get over that. I wish I could get over my pathetic insecurities that get worse and worse by the day. And I really wish I didn’t have stupid exams because it’s stopping me from being able to see Matt and today’s our 5month ‘anniversary’ (even though that’s not what an anniversary is… ‘monthiversary’ doesn’t sound right) but I can’t even see him because I have to revise. Just everything sucks and I’m so upset and lost and lonely. Blahqbdwbfihfughfoqhvguhieo. Ugh, and even my family life is shit. Everyone is talking about me behind my back and saying absolute bullshit about me and it sucks. I can’t even trust my own family. Just fed up of everything.